I never thought I could love someone again. I never thought I could actually trust another human being in the way that I trust him. I never imagined me and HIM being together. We both never had any thought of us dating because we were friends since we was younging, and I’m talking about when I could barely even remember. We were family friends, so we never saw each other in a relationship type of way. Never. We even stopped talking for probably like 5-10 years or something because our familys drifted apart and things just happened so we were just strangers. Whenever we would see each other, we wouldn’t say anything to each other. Until that one night…… LOL. I was at the club with my girls, and his homies came up to us, wanting to dance. I walked away. They were like come on, something to my girls. I don’t mean to make it sound like they were bugging because they weren’t, idk how to explain it. But It’s funny now that I think about it because now, we’re all good friends now. But anyway, so after rejecting them, he showed up out of the blue and came to say Hi to me and my cousin and gave us a hug. &That was the first time we ever spoke a word to each other in years. &He was tryna make me dance with his friend and I was just like no…….. It’s because I’m shy when it comes to dancing. &He was tryna get at my cousin. &It was just hilarious. We hung out with them after the club cause we all went to eat, we all met, conversated and shit. It was weird because it was something different from what we ever do, like hanging out with guys we barely know. Then months pass, with problems and craziness and wild nights minus me… I was the good girl at home, LOLOL… nah I’m serious. Anyway, my boyfriend and I ended up starting to hang out AS FRIENDS. Everyone thought different, like we were going on dates just cause we went to the movies all the time. But it was cause we both didn’t really have friends anymore cause by this time, my girls were already dating his friends. So we both were just using each other for company. At this time, he was just left by someone and the guy I was talking to…. He’s a fucked up ass hoe. Hahah. Anyway, how I’m explaining us hanging out, “using each other,” sounds fucked up but, it’s really wasn’t cause we were both on the same page. So we would hang out all the time and do shit when we weren’t busy.
Then… not much time pass but yet, we just started publicizing an “us.” For example, we actually started hanging out with our couple friends, I went to hang out with his family, niece, sisters and such. He came to hang out at my place. This wasn’t normal for me… I didn’t move fast with guys like this, but I guess we did all of it because in my head and in his head, we were just there for each other for temporary. This made us unaware of our actions, like bringing each other into our lives deeper than just hanging out. Then came all the relationship stuff, and holding each other, kissing and etc in public. It all got so weird, because we were technically “together” but there was no title. And the whole thing was all so different, new from how I usually handle my relationships. It was like…. carefree.. easygoing.. and I loved it. I remember before we spent time apart, he would always ask me to be his girlfriend at random times and I would always say no, that I wasn’t ready to be in a relationship again. And he would ask and ask almost every other day, and he would get the same answer. Lol, and then…. Problems rose, people interfered, i got hurt, he got hurt. Guards went up. But once we got passed it all……. it made us stronger. It was weird… Time spent apart made us realize what we had was forreals, it wasn’t for play anymore. It wasn’t just “hanging out,” or it wasn’t just “company.”
And when I usually reminisce about problems like this, it’s because I regret ever giving someone a second chance.. but I don’t. Letting him back into my life was ONE of the best choices I ever made..
That’s how January 18, 2014 became our date. After about half a year of “hanging out,” We finally realized… We actually wanted to be with each other. Hahahaha who woulda known. We ALWAYS talk about how we’re surprised we even got this far, all the time. Because we don’t believe how we could even love each other since we never even been attracted to each other like that. Ever. But I cherish him..,
I appreciate everything he does for me. The littlest things to the biggest things. He brings me food all the time when I’m hungry, he massages my feet late at night when they’re sore from work, and…. he took me to DISNEYLAND<3 He’s an amazing man. That’s the only word I can ever use to describe our time together and the kind of man he is for me. Amazing…
He ask me the other day, “Can you see us being together in the future?”
I answered “No..”
He replied “Then why’re we together?”
He just made me love him even more… I never found a man, who had the same mentality as me. My perspective on relationships were always…. Why be with someone if you don’t plan on marrying them? I ALWAYS believed in that. I even remember when they came out with a YouTube video, when they talked about the end of a relationship is only two choices, either you get married or you break up. I was like, YEEEESSSS Why haven’t I met anyone who thought this too?! I was always the only person who thought like that, even my friends thought I was crazy… But my boyfriend……….
My boyfriend. My love. My rider. My king. The one who told me, “I taught you not to give up.” <3
What an amazing man.